The Mind & The Anthill....

Why can't people write in a simple, easy to understand way??? Why do people have to go overboard to present themselves in a way they are not meant to be??? Why can't people stop thinking about themselves & think about others???........ There are so many more questions that are yet to be answered but before I find any answers another 1001 questions crowd my mind..... Have you ever tried peeping into a giant anthill? I guess not..... Our mind is much like an anthill.... Peep into it and you'll find ant trails in the form of thought chains converging & diverging into some point or leaving some point..... Every thought in our mind has a purpose but seldom are they fulfilled & hence we are left with more questions than answers..... Try organizing these ant-trails & you'll find yourself relaxed, calmed down & life too won't be as troubled as it seemed .... Actually it's all in the Anthill.....I mean It's all in the Mind.... Try it.... You'll feel better.... Confused???? Now that's what I call "Food for Thought" or rather food for your "ant-trails"....... Enjoy the New Year....

A Chaotic Existence....

I hate it when everything settles..... Even the dreams disappear & so do the thoughts..... Everything should be in a state of unrest.... In it lies the hopes of everything changing for the better..... Atleast it gives you hope of something.... But when everything settles what remains is calmness..... And it doesn't even give the sign of a storm.... Let there be complete chaos in my life.....

A year goes by.....

Everything comes to an end & so will this year..... Memories it will leave in the niches of my mind.... But was it a good year or a bad one???? I won't think that way.... I'll just take a cup of steaming coffee, curl up on my couch & think about the passing year..... Every end opens the door to a new beginning..... New thoughts...... New hopes.... New friends..... New desires.... New dreams...... No wonder its called the New Year..... Dreams to be fulfilled.... And yet new dreams will be seen.... How wonderful the times are..... But how long will they stay??? Oh the memories flow & so do my thoughts..... Confusing... Aren't they??? Yet I find them sensible..... I'll live with these memories for days to come.... Or perhaps Years to come..... Spend the coming Year wisely & well.......

It's a happy post.....

This post is for my friends who wanted me to write a happy post (namely Aar Bee)..... Well I'm immensely happy today.... Had an awesome dinner at my friend's place.... It's after such a long time that I had such a nice & "cute" dinner..... Hey Ru if aunty's around show her this.... THANK YOU AUNTY..... Anyways.... It's festive season & the season has begun with a nice party..... This party had its usual display of awful timings of comments.....(Thanx Jitz....) and the nice "adda" on the roof was an added pleasure.... Over all it was a happy day & an immensely enjoyable one.... It's nice to know that the clown is smiling again..... Enjoy....

Such is his life....

He wasn't exactly the person to get bored with life...... He wasn't even the person to think about boredom.... But life did amazing things to him.... The dilapidated buildings & the often dirty paths were once heaven to him.... He was so happy.... But good things never last for long.... The buildings have changed & so have the people in it.... The paths are cleaner but not for him.... He is unsure of what he does.... Rarely does he think now coz thoughts are not as pleasant as they used to be.... He has started to feel claustrophobic even in open air..... May be all his openness is forcing him back into his shell.... But alas he has lost his shell!!! He lies there unprotected & uncared for..... He has numerous aquantainces but rarely are they receptive to his feelings.... His laughter has lost its ring & what remains is hollowness.... He wants things to change.... For better.... But unfortunately he has changed..... Life has changed him.... He is fighting to stop this mutation.... But it seems to be losing battle.... The end seems near & the paths & the buildings are about to disappear.... Tears have replaced the smile on the Joker's face.... The "LIFE CIRCUS" has left town & he has been left behind.... He doesn't accept defeat.... He waits for a miracle to happen....

Friends.... A different perspective...

Its strange how most people seem to expect friendship between a girl & a boy to be always having a touch of love, passion & ending up in some situations in a bed..... But thats not always the case..... Friendship with the opposite sex, as I have found out, needn't always be a romantic one..... A girl can be friends with a guy & vice versa without being attracted physically.... It can often be due to a mutual respect for each other...... The point is relationships like these should be given due respect without being taunted at.... After all if you are a human being, the opposite sex is so too..... Let friendship between a girl & a boy stay on if only for the greater cause of humanity (no matter how tempting it might be to attach a flavour of romance)...... Its the virtue of living things to make friends & we are not dead people....

Realized....

Whenever I read my friends' blogs a sense of inferiority comes over me..... Its wierd.... I feel I don't know anything & absolutely incapable of putting some coherent thoughts into my posts.... But the very next moment I realize "I am what I am" & I am happy to put forward my posts in a simple (at times in a way a 10 year old kid would write) way..... Anyways I have to grow up I guess and be more mature in my writings.....As my friend aar bee rightly pointed out, its always sad, depressed & lonely.... Have to write about happier things.... I'll try that in my next post but till then................... WAIT.....

Thoughts for the season......

Winter is a nice time after all...... People have memories of get togethers....... of rubber balls disturbing a person who was in the process of experiencing carnal pleasures..... People want to get warm & cozy..... What better than meeting up with friends and discussing about life and other mundane topics over a cup of coffee & pieces of lip-smacking chocolate cake..... Anyways its also a nice season to extract the inner most feelings of your friends..... All the "kooochy-koochy" stuffs come out of their minds..... Thoughts about making out with your childhood friend, going for a long drive at night with your ex boy/girl friend, getting drunk with the girl/boy you have a crush on & tell how special he/she is....Well you can always blame the weather for your act..... It works well.... Above all this is the season you can really wrap yourself in a warm blanket & snuggle into bed with your favourite book.... Happy winter to all who reads this & happy spring too for all who comment on my blog..... ENJOY....

And then there are some.....

1. Rats in my house which inspires me to make Tom & Jerry sequels 25 years down the line...

2. Institutes that make me depresssed & make me realize I'm a big fool.....

3. People who think they know the whole world & advice on anything they want to....

4. Friends who are impatient & have a pea-sized brain.... making them confused and pathetic in whatever work they do.....

5. People with an AWFUL sense of timing....

6. People like me who is depressed enough to get up at 1 in the morning to write crap like this......

What is the world coming to......

" Bondhu-ter hoyna podobi
Bondhu tumi kedo na
Bondhu shobuj chirodin
Bondhu-ter boyesh barena

Bondhu tomar ami tai...... Attiyo-tae bedhona.....Kedo na......"

Nice lines.... Deep Meaning.... Should be followed at times...


p.s. : The last few lines are in bengali..... My apologies to all who can't understand it....By the way p.s. means "POST SCRIPT" which might be mistaken by one of my friends to be something else....

Hotch-Potch(?)

Friends like books should be few & well chosen.... Otherwise nothing much happens(!!!!!)..... You tend to lose track of which books should be studied & which should not be.... Same happens with friends.... You lose track of which friend you should communicate with & with whom you should not.... And then one fine day you realise your life is in a horrible mess..... So learn to optimize on your number of friends...... Otherwise you'll be in deep trouble like a friend of mine whose life is in a mess...... Hope he learns to optimize soon.... May God give him a little peace.... AMEN...

College Sweet College........

Hey that's my college.......Sure you know about it!!!!!!

Misunderstandings.......

Why are people so prone to misunderstanding me? May be I am not clear enough..... But when I'm clear enough I'm considered rude..... and when I'm polite and understanding I'm considered to be unjustifiably so..... When I justify myself I'm considered inconsiderate and when I don't justify myself nobody understands me...... Does it happen to you???? I don't think so...... Atleast I hope it doesn't happen to you......

Its Frustrating but.....

You keep repeating the same things again and again and again...... You realise later it was futile.... You are no good in explaining stuff..... You are only good in repeating it..... That's the tragedy of life..... What you do isn't always what you had intended to do.....

A naive approach to the Universe

This is a tribute to the most exciting topic I have ever encountered.... The cosmos.... What is this universe? When was it created(born)?What is the eventual fate of this Universe?
To begin with I would give in a nutshell what this universe is.... The universe contrary to common notion isn't the solar system. It isn't the Milky Way either. Added to these the Universe consists of thousands(underestimsted approximation) of galaxies like the Milky Way.... Infact the Milky Way is one of the smallest galaxies..... The universe also is the home of zillions of stars like the Sun....Quasars,pulsars,nebulae,asteroids,comets&black holes..... The size of the universe is a matter of imagination & the better imagination you have the better is your estimate of its size.... Hence in short the Universe is the place which houses the seen & the unseen......
The birth of the universe is a matter which is highly debated though scientists have started to believe in the Theory of Big Bang which I'll discuss later....A group of scientists believe that the Universe was not "born"...It has been there always.....Well that leaves us with the conjecture that a supreme power is instrumental in the workings or atleast the "birth" of the universe..... The other group of scientists believe that everything that is present in the universe today was compressed in a "ball of energy"....This energy became so great that the "ball of energy" exploded & the present day universe was created..... Hence the name "big bang"....
The ultimate end of the universe is also unknown.... Some believe it will contract again & form the "ball" like state again..... Some others believe that the Universe will keep on expanding ( it is expanding,i.e. it is growing in size, at this present moment) forever.......
But let us forget these things & wonder what is their beyond the boundaries of the universe? You can imagin it in steps..... What is their outside your room? To keep it short, you have the entire world..... What is their outside the world? We have the sun,planets & their satellites..... What's beyond that? Well let us stretch our imagination & say there are more such collections of planets & stars.... For those who are inventive enough let me add a few more things that's not perceivable to human mind.... Done... Now let us say we have continued this process for a long time & are now on the edge of the universe.... Where do we go now???? What is beyond this boundary.... Everything we can imagine is inside the boundary!! What is outside it????? Have we ever thought???? I don't think so & we don't intend to either..... Let the mystery remain.... Somethings are best left unanswered..... If answered the aura is lost..... Let not the spirit of explanation kill the spirit of imagination.... Till then imagine.....

Happy Now.....That's all I want...

Its only my blog & me in this huge cyber kingdom...... Here we lie lonely,deserted,desolate & ignored....This is the least read blog but I am still happy...... Its for my pleasure & that's all I want..... Well the most unprepared exam of my life is over & I am happy now..... Looking forward to a blissful life & an exciting end to college life.....That's all I want......As my wise friend says "Happy days are ahead...(in a century or so...)".....Take care my friends & may your blogs live long............

It comes....

Well the day is almost here..... I don't really know what I was doing for the last 4 months but yes I'm totally unprepared..... It's sad but yet again another day passes without me making any improvement.... I'm like a stagnant pool of water... No where to go & entirely clueless about life....

Constant..I...(ne)..

Some things just don't change....and even if they do its always for the worse..... It's sad but it just keeps happening with me.... Simply given up on it.....

Confused....

At times it's so difficult to write something..... Its a feeling of utter frustration... Do all people face the same plight as mine????? Or are they more blessed than me in matters relating to clarity of thought????? I wonder how would a literate person feel if he woke up one fine morning and discovered he had lost his ability to read and write... I Think and Think and Think and.... Well I think I have certainly lost my senses otherwise I wouldn't have written all these crap..... But at the same time I have realized all I have written is crap..... So I certainly can't be out of my senses....... Or could I be???? I don't know..... It's so confusing...... Better not think about this..... Ahhhh..... The agony of a confused mind......

It's Sad

I considered them my peers..............How foolish I was.........Self-realization is very essential......

Happy Days....down the memory lane..

Well the pujas are over....Yes it was a puja well spent....from addas at friends' place to seeing cross-dressers at Maddox....from watching beautiful girls in varied dresses portraying ethnicity(?) & modernity(?)...(at times post-modernity(?))....to taking a walk down the memory lane with the aroti at Maddox....Yes it was a nice puja....Anyways....its gone & again a long wait begins....Wishing everyone a superb year ahead.....As my friend says....Happy Days are ahead....Subho Bijoya.......

Nostalgia....

The sound of the dhak is perhaps the most nostalgic sound a bengali can ever hear/imagine....Well my roots of existence were truly given a healthy dose of this sound....Yes....the aroti....the dhak..... & the serenity that was present in the eyes of the goddess was enough to make me feel proud of my roots.....Y are so many "bongs" so disgusted with their roots????Anyways....the pujas are about to end & again the long wait begins.....the wait for 4 magical days starts again....with hopes for a better tomorrow.....Another day of my life is gone.....and I keep wondering about this uncertain journey of life....May the pujas shower your life with unprecedented happiness.....Enjoy life always...

It's happy days again...

Well its time for the grandest festival of all(opinions do differ,but this is my blog so my views rule...)!!! Its the festival of happiness,friendship,love & yes of course...DEVOTION...Now that our death knell (results) has stopped its gong we all are happy & i hope so are the rest....lets enjoy.....atleast till the depressing days come again....anyways...HAPPY PuJAS to all....enjoy life & meet you all soon.....Happy "bird watching" for all my male friends....(SORRY i couldn't find a better word for 'watching the fairer sex...".....I feel the rest of the terminologies used are derogatory)...forget all this and enjoy .....

Finally.....

Finally....I am courageous enough to start my own blog.....dono what to write but i'll improve with time..(I hope so)....well i'm proud of myself.....will b ritin here soon with my day to day life or somebody else's.....